I always thought I was really independent, enjoyed my own company, but now I'm starting to think that maybe I spend so much of my time alone for one reason only - the fact that it's just easier. I don't have very many friends. I know loads of people, from school and college and work, friends of friends and of course, people on Boards, but I tend to keep everyone at arms length. We can go out together and laugh and we can stay up all night and talk about everything... as long as it means nothing, nothing at all.
So, I say that I love being by myself and while it can be okay, sometimes I wish I could let more people matter. I wish I wasn't so scared of being left, of being let down, of not being enough.