Have you ever convinced yourself that your phone was broken? It's easier than believing that no one wants to talk to you, isn't it? Sometimes I just want to know that I do cross someones mind, I need to know that it does matter than I exist. It's the most pathetic thing. I'm always saying to myself in my head, "Oh, you're being so clingy, you're being so stupid" and yeah, I probably am. But that's it, there it is. I desperately need to be needed, and I crazily want to be wanted.
Being by yourself 24/7 is honestly enough to drive anyone insane. It sounds like bliss in the beginning, but when the only person you talk to for days on end is the guy selling you milk in the shop, or someone you bump into accidentally in the street, you really do start to wonder if it'd even be noticed if you dropped off the face of the earth.
I, deep down, know that I do matter to people... and that's why I hate the fact I feel like I need it all to be validated. Why is it not enough for me to just know, why is that not enough?