I am feeling better. I stopped taking my medication nine days ago, and I honestly feel so much lighter. I walked into the chemist and when I got to the counter I thought, "Do I need this? Will handing over thirty euro for four tiny pills make me feel any better?". I walked back out.
You're not supposed to stop taking any kind of anti-depressants, anti-anxieties etc., just like that. I was on a pretty high dose of Lexapro so really I should have weaned myself off over a period of time. I felt physically terrible for about a week. Nauseous, trembly, tired. Now though, now I feel more like myself.
Yesterday, I applied to college. Hopefully, come September, I'll find myself in Trinity studying Psychology and English Literature. I think this is a turning point for me. Well, I really hope it is. I want to do things again.
While I am here, I think I'll add in a song I am liking at the moment.
The Notwist - Consequence.